Mandy Moore opened up about her marriage to Ryan Adams on Monday’s episode of Marc Maron’s “WTF” podcast. While the interview was taped before the publication of the New York Times report in which multiple women, including Moore, accuse Adams of sexual misconduct or emotionally abusive behavior, she speaks freely about the “unhealthy dynamic*” in the marriage, which lasted from 2009 to 2016.

“I was living my life for him,” Moore says on the show. “It [was] an entirely unhealthy dynamic. I had no sense of self.”

“I felt like I was drowning,” she continues. “It was so untenable* and unsustainable* and it was so lonely. I was so sad. I was lonely with him.”

She said her own career took a back seat to Adams’ needs, saying she knew the marriage couldn’t “sustain itself” if she’d worked full time. “I would do little jobs — it’s not like I completely stopped working,” she says. “But it would become abundantly* clear while I was working, things would completely fall apart at home. I couldn’t do my job because there was a constant stream of trying to pay attention to this person who needed me and wouldn’t let me do anything else.”

(SD-Agencies)