Angela Tian

Do I really know what I am doing?

Do I want to do it?

Or do I think I want to do it?

Emotion is complex.

Maybe that is what I want.

Or maybe that is what I think I want.

But do I really know what I truly desire?

Few do.

There are good reasons for me to take action.

I may feel good in the future.

But the present me does not want to.

It is an excuse for laziness.

Or, that is what I feel.

What I feel is my feeling.

I can’t argue against feeling.

Intelligent is confusing.

I think I want to do it,

for happiness in the future.

But I can have pleasure now.

What are the reasons to wait until the future?

Why am I gambling certainty with uncertainty?

Should I enjoy the future,

or should I enjoy the present?

Future will one day become present.

If I know I can have it now,

why do I postpone it to the future?

For a better one?

Thousands of reasons discourage me, but only one reason is needed for action.

Vice versa.

What should I do?

Do I really know what I am doing?